could only go back at around 7 today. i never left school so late. it was so isolated and all. gave me the creeps. i wished someone would be there w/ me.

[haha, the ringtone for my mom's message alert and her caller alert was the same, so when she got a message just now, she went "hello? oh, its an sms". i kept laughing at her. yea anw... ....]

let my mind wander in the bus.. aiya, got so distracted by my mom singing that i forgot what i wanted to type.. yeesh..

anw, when the bus was nearing tiong, i tot i saw daniel, but it was just my mind playing tricks on me. i hate it when that happens. y'know, when you miss someone or didnt see someone for quite some time, you start seeing his/her face everywhere. duno why that happens. gets people excited only to be bitterly disappointed in the end.

hai. was so lonely today [on the way home i mean]. i'm usually alone on my way home, but jiajun takes the same bus as me, so its comforting to see a familiar face. saw like, so many couples when i was gazing absentmindedly out the window. whenever i see couples i'd feel a pang in my heart. like i'm envious or something. i guess i am..

juz that when you're always with someone special and suddenly you decided to obey your parents and wait till you're allowed to date, the feeling of being alone doesnt really help. but jon once told me that one cant feel weird being alone, because you'd be alone in the beginning years of ur life, right? yea, jon made a whole lot of sense. mmz, had a great time w/ jon that time. you can call it a date or something, but it sure felt like one. heez. but u knw, juz a couple of friends going out..

man, my mom sure is no. 1 weird. she juz kissed me on the head and said to me, "oh man, i dont know what to do w/ you. to whack you or to hug you". i juz laughed but in my head i was going "yala yala". i think she said that cuz i wanted n6260. =P